I fear getting on the train, and no I do not mean metaphorically, I literally am afraid to board a train. I am not sure where this fear originated, but for as long as I can remember I have been afraid of the space between the platform and the train. While waiting for the train, I stare with envy at all the commuters who repeatedly stick their heads out to check the arrival of the train. Meanwhile I cautiously stand behind the bright yellow line, with my eyes widening each time someone steps over. When I am with friends, I try to nonchalantly bring them away from the edge of the platform. When I am alone, I stand stiffly on the side waiting anxiously. When the train station is empty, I can calmly aboard the train, watching carefully where I place my feet and/or luggage if I have any. When it is peak hours, I get nervous, I wonder "what if someone pushes me and my foot gets caught." I wonder a lot of things while waiting for the train. I have morbid daydreams of me almost falling onto the tracks and someone saving me(usually a handsome man, who turns out to be the man of my dreams). Or sometimes I have heroic daydreams of me saving someone from the tracks and me being awarded the key to the city, of course all my day dreams after the climax have happy endings; what do you think I am, crazy? Don't answer that!
I am not afraid of death yet I am afraid of the space between the platform. Hmm, I am sure a licensed professional would make some profound statement: You fear taking a leap of faith, yet welcome the end. I would just say or maybe I just have a fear just like people fear flying or insects. Maybe one day I will overcome this fear, but until then I will just stare with green eyes at those who walk boldly onto the train, while I take in a gulp of air then leap aboard.
This blog post was inspired by day 10 of the Get to Know L.Marie blog challenge
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